Saturday, August 30, 2008

Just Thinking

So, what do you do when someone you have counted on to support you in something doesn't come through? What do you do when that situation involves more than just yourself? How do you explain to someone that they don't mean as much to that person anymore? How do you help the hurt to go away?

I have learned over the last three years that blood really is thicker than water. It's very hard to understand it for a seven year old. How do you explain to them that people who have meant the world to her no longer find her as important. No one worry. It's not myself or Mike. We're all fine. But you know, I even struggle with how people can change their commitment level to you to whatever suits them at that time, or for whatever crisis is going on at the moment that they can "shine" in. I know that that sounds really critical, but it's the truth.

I realize people let you down and situations change, but how do you explain that to a young child, who still has that innocence and gives and expects unconditional love. It gets very tiring covering for those people in her life. I know that at some point she'll have to face those situations, but I can't really imagine that it really has to be at seven.

I'm very frustrated and honestly ticked. But as I've learned to say this too shall pass.

I pray that Sherrianne's sweet spirit will someday make a difference in their lives that will help put things back into a right priority.

Thanks for listening!
W

Friday, August 29, 2008

A time to get caught up

I've set down quite a few times to get everything updated and it's amazing what distractions can come up. So, what's been going on in our lives lately?

My healthy living lifestyle is going okay. The six week mark has been very hard. I've not done well at all this week. I'm really concentrating and focusing on next week to start back up. It's the whole story of it seems harder to take off than to put on. I'm sorry, but lifting weights does not taste as good as chocolate pie. But, I've gotten my focus off my goals and back on food and I've got to fix that. So next week I start again!!

We've finally gotten a new stove--at least new to us. It's so nice to have four burners and a stove that works--now for a refrigerator and we'll be set.

Sherrianne has her surgery on the 4th of September. Reality has started to sink in for her and she's both scared and excited. Recovery time frame is longer than the surgery we had two years ago, but of course they are doing more things to help repair the knee. We will probably be coming home that day but we're not positive. Either way it will be a long and tiring day for all of us. We feel very confident about our doctor and truly believe that he has her best interests in mind.

I've moved the living room around--which drives Mike crazy. But I like it. You can't do a lot with a little room but sometimes a little change is better than none.

Jason (Mike's brother) will be moving out here around the first of October and his mom will be coming to visit. That will be a lot of fun. Please pray that Jason will be able to find a good job and a reasonable place to live close to the girls.

We celebrated Sherrianne's "friends" party in August with a pool party. It was a beautiful day! We grilled hot dogs and then went swimming. She's decided that she likes having her friends party in the summer. You can do so much more than in the winter.

Bella is still the same, cute and pathetic. We wouldn't want her any other way.

Homeschooling is going well, we'll be taking a break for a couple of weeks, but then once everything is under control we'll get back at it. She really seems to enjoy homeschooling this year. I really hope that continues.

Hope you all have a wonderful Labor Day!

Love,
W

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

It's time to get caught up!

Well, I don't really plan on getting deep and philosophical, but who knows what might come out. There's been a lot going on in our family.

Physically, I've started a new healthy life change--it's been fun and challenging, but I do know that I'm doing the right thing at the right time and for the right reason, or believe me I wouldn't still be sticking to it. I'm so not into working out--BUT when you're past 40 (I know that's hard for everyone to believe!) you have no choice. I do enjoy exercising after I do it, I really feel sense of accomplishment. And I'm doing something positive for me.

Emotionally, we're getting ready to head into some very major times--it's interesting to me, how so unprepared I feel to be strong this time. Which I know is truly so that I will rely on God during this whole time. Sherrianne is very excited and those are her words to have her surgery done. I can't imagine what it's like not being able to trust your body to not support you. I think I battle the most with the feeling of it being so unfair--she's just seven--I know God has a very special purpose and reason for everything--but it still makes it hard for a mom.

Financially, we're sunk! We don't have any money coming in until Friday--no gas in one car and limited food. This is really where I need to see the miracle. I'm not posting this for hand-outs I just need to release some pressure. I'm not sure how we're going to make it this year. I won't be cooking at the church or working for Donna--my catering business is ended, so obviously God has something else planned, but I don't know what that is. Pray for us.

Mike feels very insecure at his job. The mortgage industry is so volatile that you never know from day to day what is going to happen. Pray that God will guide him to go and be exactly where he should be and if it is to stay at GMAC then give him peace that he is in the right place.

Please continue to pray for Sherrianne. We go down to Iowa City on the 26th of August for pre-op and then her surgery is on the 4th of September. I need her child like faith, because I'm really not ready to go through this again.

Thank you all for reading and understanding and most of all for caring!

We celebrated Sherrianne's "friend" birthday on the 16th--we had a pool party and it was so much fun. I'm hoping she'll do her "friend" party every summer. It just gives us more things to do for her party. She has such a great group of girls that she is friends with. God has truly blessed us.

Mike and I celebrated our 10th Anniversary this month. We went to Wasserbahn and the Amana's as a family and it was a great time.

May God bless all of you!

Love,
Wendy

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Sorry it's been so long!

The middle of August! Guess what I saw today! LEAVES TURNING COLORS!! I will be so freaked out if winter comes back in September!!

Everything has been going okay--Sherrianne is doing great in 3rd grade--I've started working out and really enjoy it. Okay, now everyone get up off the floor and quit laughing!! It has been exciting! This is a new journey for me, and I'm really enjoying it.

Okay, I was going to get really deep, but I'm suddenly tired. I'll write more later--I promise!

Me